Thoughts

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

A reading of a dark future based on a dark present:

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Intro:

Tried to live, but there was no space or place for me. I owned my life not. Now that I'm as old as I am, they gave me my empty life back. They blame me now for not living.

Here it goes:

Millions of things have I lost;
Chances
Opportunities
People
Things that meant a lot to me
Moments
Seconds
Minutes
Hours
YEARS!

I had them all, and yet let them go. I'm left with only memories and regret. How could I have them all and let them go? How fool was I to not try hard enough to keep them? How could I just stand still not trying to fight for what I think was mine?
I was helpless and weak. I was confined and impeded.

It was my life. Not theirs, but mine. Mine only.

That was what I thought. That was the way it should have been.

But everybody had a piece of me. My life was theirs, not mine. They took control over me. Tried to shape my destiny the way they thought was "better" for me.

Was it?

Is it?

NO, it wasn't.

NO, it isn't.

Take a look at me now; an old woman. I have nothing to live for. Those who shaped my life are no longer here. They have their "own" prosperous lives, and I'm left with nothing at all. They say that I can live my life the way I want now. They say I'm old enough to do so. Well, isn't that just too late? I have no legs to help me stand up. Nowhere to start. It's too late now. I have to sleep and hope that I never wake up.

Outro:
Once lost, never regained.

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PS: I'm writing this and I'm really really depressed! *sigh*

Posted by Faith :: 6:03 AM :: 9 comments